I appreciate this so much. And sending so much love to you as well. Everything does feel so heavy. I am just so wrapped up in it all that I am losing myself. I don't want that. But I know that I can come out of this, but I have to properly step away from it. I haven't given myself that opportunity yet. Thank you.
I appreciate your vulnerability in sharing this. I find myself at a similar point with FB, although not dependent on it for a kind of following / business. But finding that it brings out the worst in me / in my connections with others / even though it is how I stay connected to others. I recently decided to block those who I am in some kind of sideways relationship with, or no real relationship with - the ones who when I consider posting something vulnerable I think, I don't want to share that with them. I am hopeful that getting down to a list that is basically my real circle will let me be more vulnerable & real & that will in turn lead to less mindless scrolling & lost time & unproductive comparisons. I parent / homeschool (neurodivergent children, pushed out of public ed) / work part time - all from home - & I know you do too. It's hard to balance these apps that seem to give us windows out into the world, especially windows into less typical spaces.
yes! it is so hard to maintain that balance. i think it might be a little different for me if i didn't do EVERYTHING from home. but i do and that means i spent a lot of time online, so i saw a lot of stuff online. and it was just starting to get to me.
You have my support always girl. 💖 I’m genuinely thankful for your existence.. your work aside. I just love the human that you are. I think removing the apps was a good call. And a call I’ve often thought of making myself. Forces me to actually take time to sit at the computer to scroll.. and with that the time is more limited. We’re very screen dependent here and I desperately wanna change that.
I hope doing so was the key to help you truly take a break and rebuild yourself. 💖💖
thank you so much. i hope this was the key too. cause i really don't want to leave any of the spaces that too me years to cultivate for years but i need to get it together.
This post spoke to me in so many ways and on so many levels. Though our experiences are very different- I know the feeling you speak of. My happiness feels very much at surface level right now - not deep and coming from my heart or belly. Reading your words that express such vulnerability and rawness make me realize I’m not alone. I’m not the only one. Please continue to document your journey.
Everyone I know is feeling burned out and a sense of heaviness right now. It's a hard world to live in, in so many ways. And while online communities have brought us connections we couldn't have in person in the pandemic years, it's really hard to separate out the toxic pieces and just keep the nourishing ones.
Another newsletter I read and love, Anne Helen Petersen's Culture Study, had a great piece on themes of 2022 that resonated with me:
The themes are "We’re Breaking, We’re Broken," “We’re Floundering Forward,” and “We’re Remembering — Or Learning, for the First Time — How to Build.” Reading it made me feel seen, and I hope you can find that kind of warm hug feeling, either here or elsewhere. Hoping for a return to happiness for you soon, Tiffy.
thank you so much for the recommendation! i am going to check out anne right now! there's so much heaviness going around right now, you are so right about that. i don't know if it is because of the winter season (which technically isn't here just yet, but kinda feels like it for a texan, lol) or if we are starting to recognize our trigger points, stressors, and trying to enforce boundaries we hadn't tried before, but whatever it is...a lot of us are feeling it.
I feel you. Everything is so heavy, and when there's children depending on you there's only so much you can put down.
You are an incredible, beautiful person, with boundless empathy and depth. And that makes things even heavier, to feel so much, so deeply.
You are worth all the time that you need to get back to yourself.
Love and best wishes, from another weary mama.
I appreciate this so much. And sending so much love to you as well. Everything does feel so heavy. I am just so wrapped up in it all that I am losing myself. I don't want that. But I know that I can come out of this, but I have to properly step away from it. I haven't given myself that opportunity yet. Thank you.
You are very welcome. I'm glad you're stepping away and giving yourself some space. It's much easier said than done!
so much easier said than done, but i am determined to do it! thank you.
Thank you for sharing this. Thank you for your vulnerability. I'm grateful for the opportunity to read your words ❤
thank you for being here.
I appreciate your vulnerability in sharing this. I find myself at a similar point with FB, although not dependent on it for a kind of following / business. But finding that it brings out the worst in me / in my connections with others / even though it is how I stay connected to others. I recently decided to block those who I am in some kind of sideways relationship with, or no real relationship with - the ones who when I consider posting something vulnerable I think, I don't want to share that with them. I am hopeful that getting down to a list that is basically my real circle will let me be more vulnerable & real & that will in turn lead to less mindless scrolling & lost time & unproductive comparisons. I parent / homeschool (neurodivergent children, pushed out of public ed) / work part time - all from home - & I know you do too. It's hard to balance these apps that seem to give us windows out into the world, especially windows into less typical spaces.
yes! it is so hard to maintain that balance. i think it might be a little different for me if i didn't do EVERYTHING from home. but i do and that means i spent a lot of time online, so i saw a lot of stuff online. and it was just starting to get to me.
You have my support always girl. 💖 I’m genuinely thankful for your existence.. your work aside. I just love the human that you are. I think removing the apps was a good call. And a call I’ve often thought of making myself. Forces me to actually take time to sit at the computer to scroll.. and with that the time is more limited. We’re very screen dependent here and I desperately wanna change that.
I hope doing so was the key to help you truly take a break and rebuild yourself. 💖💖
thank you so much. i hope this was the key too. cause i really don't want to leave any of the spaces that too me years to cultivate for years but i need to get it together.
This post spoke to me in so many ways and on so many levels. Though our experiences are very different- I know the feeling you speak of. My happiness feels very much at surface level right now - not deep and coming from my heart or belly. Reading your words that express such vulnerability and rawness make me realize I’m not alone. I’m not the only one. Please continue to document your journey.
sending you so much love on your journey, friend. i appreciate you for being here and following along as i find my happy.
Everyone I know is feeling burned out and a sense of heaviness right now. It's a hard world to live in, in so many ways. And while online communities have brought us connections we couldn't have in person in the pandemic years, it's really hard to separate out the toxic pieces and just keep the nourishing ones.
Another newsletter I read and love, Anne Helen Petersen's Culture Study, had a great piece on themes of 2022 that resonated with me:
https://annehelen.substack.com/p/themes-of-a-year-2022
The themes are "We’re Breaking, We’re Broken," “We’re Floundering Forward,” and “We’re Remembering — Or Learning, for the First Time — How to Build.” Reading it made me feel seen, and I hope you can find that kind of warm hug feeling, either here or elsewhere. Hoping for a return to happiness for you soon, Tiffy.
thank you so much for the recommendation! i am going to check out anne right now! there's so much heaviness going around right now, you are so right about that. i don't know if it is because of the winter season (which technically isn't here just yet, but kinda feels like it for a texan, lol) or if we are starting to recognize our trigger points, stressors, and trying to enforce boundaries we hadn't tried before, but whatever it is...a lot of us are feeling it.
I second Anne’s newsletter - it is really great!
just subscribed and recommended! thanks to you both for the recommendation, i am loving the newsletter so far.
It brings me joy to see these new points of connection forming in real time! ❤️
i know! it's exciting!